Friday, May 22, 2015

27 Days

We're coming up on a month that Jimmy's been in the hospital. He hasn't been home in 27 days.

I ran into a neighbor in Kroger tonight. She's one of my favorite people in our condo building. Her name is Betty. Betty happened to see me as I was packing up my car, heading to the ER with the baby to go meet Jimmy on April 26th. I actually hadn't seen her since.

I told Betty then how much this was needed. For Jimmy to get some urgent medical care. He looked so bad. He wasn't himself. There was just so much unknown about what was happening. She wanted to comfort me but I was in go mode, and I assured her that Jimmy and I both felt better after we made the call to 911. A sense of relief took us over. We knew it was the right decision.

I had never called 911 before. We live very close to several hospitals, fire and police stations. We hear sirens all the time. Very odd to hear them and to know this time, they're coming for you. Jimmy said they rode non-urgent, without sirens and lights. He wasn't in distress, and because of that, we were able to chose the hospital we wanted. I remember getting in the ER and having some conversations with the ER doc and a lung doctor. Jimmy had blacked out once while I was there, having a brief moment of unresponsiveness. That was something that was happening a lot. I assured Betty the call we made we most likely life-saving. We truly didn't realize the depth of his sickness until they started unraveling over the course of two weeks in ICU.

Running into Betty today made me realize just how far he's come since the last time I've seen her. I explained to her what Jimmy's been through with surgery, not being able to eat and drink, not able to see the baby for two weeks, septic, etc. Jimmy has gone from five antibiotics to one. He ate almost a whole meal today. He hasn't wanted to eat in months. He's gaining back some of that weight. His skin wounds are healing, albeit slowly. They're looking good, finally. He gets to see the baby! He's able to smile. He's able to stay awake most of the day. He's even done a few hours off the vent.

27 days without my husband home. It's been hard leaving him everyday. Sometimes I can stay longer than others, depending on childcare situation, visitors, just how tired I am, and how much the baby can tolerate if she's with me. Since he's been at Shepherd, the baby has come with me. She's been so good for the most part. She flashes her Dadda a big smile everyday when we go. Makes it all worthwhile. She also brightens the day of his health care workers. She's not too picky to who she'll flash a smile too, and people just love that.

So, it's looking like Jimmy might come home on Tuesday. 

The most exciting part is that he's eating real food again! I can go get him (or order) whatever he wants. A simple pleasure re-established. 

I'm not going lie and say having my home without nurses hasn't been wonderful. It's been a nice break, even though they normally help a lot. That's always been a major adjustment for me following the injury.

So, it's been just me and the Spence. We're ready for Dadda to come home.

Monday, May 11, 2015

My First Mother's Day

I guess it could have been a pretty uneventful, ordinary day. My parents moved around a lot of stuff to make it so they were here to help me celebrate my first Mother's Day. With Jimmy in the hospital, they probably knew I'd be alone with Spencer. It ended being such a great time! 

We got to-go breakfast from my favorite place and went to an early supper before we all went to the hospital. Our dear friends Angie and Cameron were here in town and it was so good to have some laughter and familiarity in the house, although it was tough not having Jimmy here. 

It's been over two weeks since he's been in the the hospital. We miss him something terrible around here. Hopefully this week he'll be able to come back home. I'm grateful for these folks, though, who made this day pretty special for me and the babe. Hearts!
Three Generations on Mother's Day
Me and My Spencie.
Bless. Cameron participating in the head-wearing.

Thursday, May 7, 2015

Her Grandmothers

Just in time for Mother's Day, Spencer got to meet her Nana Sandra and has spent all week with her Gigi. So sweet to watch this little one with these leading ladies in her life. 

Mother's Day(ish) memories. 

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

Spencer: 6 Months

Dear Spence:

Your half-birthday was on April 29th, buuuuut we've been busy. 

As I type this, I'm waiting on them to come get Dadda to take him off to surgery. He's getting some stuff fixed. He's been in ICU for over a week and I'm pretty optimistic he'll come home in a heck of a lot better shape than he left, although the road to recovery will be lengthy. You're safe and happy at home with your Gigi and Peepops who drove in last night to watch you. 

You've been so good considering you've spent a lot of the last week being looked after in the ICU waiting area. You're not allowed back into this unit, so you haven't seen your Dadda since he's been in. I can't wait for the reuniting of my two favorite people. Big smiles all around, for sure. 

You did get to see him for several hours in the ER the day we called the ambulance. You were such a charmer to the rescue workers. Pretty sure you got just as much attention as your Dadda. 

So many friends have been helping out in watching you so I could be with your Dad. The help has been amazing. I've learned all you have to do is ask. Ask and you shall receive, dear one. People will rise to the occasion. 

It helps that you're the happiest and easiest baby on the planet. Thanks for that, by the way. 

You got your first sickness this month. You got a cold, a temp, and then an ear infection immediately following. I got your cold and mine turned into an upper respiratory infection. It was a rough couple of weeks. We were both on Amoxicillin for our ailments. And it turns out, you might be Amoxicilin allergic. Once you were getting it from your dose and mine via breastmilk-- you started developing giant hives. Oh, that wasn't scary at all.

I think you're back to being your healthy, happy self. 

With all the babysitting and running to the  hospital and not being able to use some Amoxicilin-tainted milk, we realized how unprepared we were in terms of having a milk stash. We tried formula as a supplement. You only liked it mixed with Mama's milk. By itself? Gags. However, we tried some apples this week and you seemed to love them! 

You're sitting up pretty good. You love to make eye contact and really look at who has you. You smile more than anyone I know. 

It's a crazy time right now and you're handling it like a pro. It's almost as if you understand why I have to leave you all the time. 

Dadda will be home soon! 


Sunday, April 19, 2015

Closet Nursery Update

Now that we're almost six months in, I have to say: the closet nursery can be done. 

I have a full size crib, a changing table with drawers, a book shelf and a place for clothes. Aside from room for my glider, I have everything I need in there. 

Spencer really only sleeps in there, but, she's starting to hang out in her crib more while I have to get stuff done. She used to abhor that thing. So, 30 minutes of playtime in the crib before screaming her head off = progress. 

Some people that come see it say, "it's smaller than I thought."

In which I ask, "what kind of Tori Spelling walk-in closet have you been hanging out in?" 

Meanwhile, my shower is RIGHT next to her door. I thought this was gonna be a problem but her Sleep Easy machine is a godsend and I thank the friend who recommended it. 

Our little arrangement is working nicely. I think she rather likes her little nursery nook. 

Friday, April 17, 2015

Recent Spencer Firsts

A few of SRM's recent firsts...

First time riding in the Big Girl part of the cart. 
Since she can't sit up yet so we were heavily relying on that strap. 
She frickin' loved it and thought she was hot stuff sitting up there!

First taste of adult human food. 
Jeni's Splendid Ice Cream. 
Flavor: (1st scoop) Goat Cheese and Cherries and (2nd scoop) Ombre Brulee. 
She spit most of it out but the taste sure did make her happy. 

First time at the aquarium. 
This is her first look actually at a beautiful, bright tank.
Such wonderment!
And then shortly after this... she went to sleep. 
Enough is enough.

Her first Easter! 
This also included her first time at church. She did beautifully! 
That weekend, she also met her Great Uncle, Aunt and cousins from Myrtle Beach. 
Instant best buddies with those gals.
She loved cuddling with her Gigi on Easter morning.

Spencer's first sickness. 
Sad face. 
Baby girl caught a cold (which she has now successfully passed onto Momma).
Although under the weather, she still smiled a whole bunch. 
That was no fun, though. Grandparents, luckily, were here to help us. 

Their Joy

Spencer and her grandparents: it's such a beautiful thing to watch. She has sweet baby magic that sends their hearts floating. And, she smiles for them whenever they want it. So much love floating back and forth this past week. We're gonna miss them so much!

Sunday, April 12, 2015

Happy 45th, JWM!

I feel like 45 is a big one. Halfway between 40 and 50. I probably should have planned something for Jimmy's birthday this year, but we've been overwhelmed with his current injury ailments and baby stuff and Easter and just... life. I'm kind of exhausted. 

Luckily, Jimmy had a sliver of an energy spurt yesterday. Great timing, because his BFF from Boston came to visit with her husband. 

We went to Emory Village for some pizza and beer. Although Jimmy is having a hard time eating right now due to some swallowing issues, he got a few bites of pork belly pizza down, about a half a beer and ate a whole ice cream after! 

This was huge for him! 

He got by with a small nap (usually requires hours of naps) and pushed himself to stay out all day. The weather couldn't have been better in Downtown Decatur. 

It was a lovely day. Think he is filled-up after friends, and then family and then more friend visitors.  

Jimmy got some good gifts in the form of calls, texts, messages, cards, bacon, Amazon gift-card, a Boston Marathon half-zip, and from his daughter? The PPV boxing match that he really wants to see in May.  

She really is trying to get in good with Dadda. 

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Spencer: Five Months

Hi Spence!

You're five months old now! No one can believe how fast you're growing - especially me! This is a really fun age. You're becoming more and more alert and aware all the time. And nosey. Gotta know what it is and why it's doing that.

You're frightened of loud, sudden noises and we've learned that you do not like car rides at night. Like, scream. The whole time. Red in the face. But the minute we get out of the car, you'll smile. You really don't require a recovery period, which is good.  

We spent your 5 month birthday at the aquarium with friends and their kiddos. You were kinda into the fishies and you seemed to love the bright-colored tanks with the beautiful lights shining through the water. We took your first walk through Centennial Park in the Ergo. It was sunny, but very windy.

Dadda has a lot going on with him right now, but you never fail to help him crack a smile. You're a charmer like that.

You started grabbing your toes this morning! And I think I saw you checking out your hands. You're pretty close to sitting up but we're just taking it one day at a time.

We love you and those sweet dark blue eyes you're currently working. 


Thursday, March 19, 2015

Broadcasters Foundation of America

It wasn't long after Jimmy's accident when our then News Director told us about The Broadcasters Foundation of America. This is an amazingly specific group that helps injured members of the media. This was something I knew I needed to look into because at that early stage of post-injury, I just wasn't sure how everything would shake out.

I filled out the application and then, a few weeks later, got a call they wanted to help us. This was such an immense relief because I had already decided that work wasn't something I just couldn't do yet. Not to mention all of the unforeseen cost that were coming with this injury - that wouldn't be covered. This phone call and gesture from this foundation helped me to worry a little less when that's all I did - all day, everyday, even in my sleep.

About every year or so, I fill out our grant renewal application and explain where we our in newish life and mainly, with Jimmy's injury. It's a challenge to find new ways of saying he still doesn't have any feeling or movement and still uses the ventilator. He's still in a wheelchair and he's still paralyzed. But, this year, I got to include the addition of our daughter, Spencer. It was shortly after we got an email from the foundation with a request for us to tell our story.

I had a wonderful talk with someone named David who was going to be editing the piece, I think. He seemed so moved by our circumstances. So genuine. He arranged for one of our former co-workers from WSPA to come shoot the piece which turned out to be a nice reunion. Jason was the photographer who worked on the first story we did with our news station after the accident. They actually used some of that original story in this piece. 

Then I get an email from Deborah Norville. Inside Edition Deborah Norville! No big. We're now email BFFs, btw.

Deborah is on the board of this foundation, as well as George Stephanopoulos. Deborah would be putting our piece together, and then use that to make their case for garnering funds for the foundation. She was very kind and excited to help tell our story.

They did a really good job with this. I cried at us. Seeing it all spelled out like that again... whew.  We're at the beginning and end. The story in the middle tugs 'atcha, too.

Oh, and we had nothing to do with this but Go Pats!

If by chance you'd like to donate to the Broadcasters Foundation of America, click HERE.

Sunday, March 8, 2015

4 Month Photos

I didn't plan on getting 4 month photos done for Spencer, but I found out a family friend had moved to town, and she is a phenomenal picture-taker. And, it's really hard to get just a few pictures taken at a reasonable price in this crazy city. I knew she wouldn't charge me hundreds upon hundreds.

For a little make-shift studio in my bedroom using the last natural light of this particular day -- I'd say these came out pretty good!

So, in case you haven't seen enough pictures of my daughter...

Spencer Rosalyn Moore
4 Months Old