Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Oh, Amelia..

Oh what a movie.
And Hillary Swank, just so phenomenal in portraying her image.

I love Amelia. And idolize the bravery and courage about her. I wonder where else her will would have taken her, if she didn't mysteriously disappear that day in 1937. What else would this great woman of American history go on to have accomplished?

What a heartbreak.

With all do respect, Amelia, you were very stubborn. Something I can relate to.

When someone told you it's never been done, and 14 others died trying, you went.

When someone told you, you'd most likely die, you went.

And that, I guess, is how we've gotten to where we are today. Courage and the will to pave the way for others.

It is inspiring. That's for sure. You've done your job.

Amelia had a husband at home who adored her. He was someone she loved very much, as well. This was to be her last flight, then she would come home.

I started watching this movie forgetting how it would end. Tragically, pretty much.

I wanted a happy ending so bad. I wanted her to win! I wanted her to go on loving. You can't rewrite history, though. You can only learn from it.

She always knew it was a risk and yet still pushed forward. Always wanting more. Always aiming higher.

Oh, Amelia.

I just love you.

"I'd rather face a watery grave than go on living as a fraud. "
~Amelia Earhart

Saturday, April 24, 2010

A Few of my Favorite Things

in no particular order..

  • Getting new magazines in the mail
  • Toasted coconut coffee
  • Fresh cut grass
  • The smell of new construction
  • Tivo
  • Candles
  • My lunch box
  • The Office
  • Twitter
  • My Lolita wine glasses
  • Wedding receptions
  • Seeing new babies sleep
  • Sunday mornings
  • A day spent inside
  • Peanut butter & banana sandwiches
  • TJ Maxx
  • The smell of Starbucks
  • Days off
  • My Blackberry
  • My friends
  • Family events
  • Pastries
  • Madison and Makayla
  • Getting greeting cards in the mail
  • Making headway on bills
  • Cookouts
  • Fresh cut flowers
  • Yard sales
  • Peyton, Luke and Aiden
  • The news
  • Pay day
  • Walmart
  • Making a big fuss out of other's birthday's
  • Bargains
  • Bubble baths
  • Ingrid Michaelson
  • The Beach
  • Late night talk show humor
  • Perfume
  • Christmas
  • Satellitte Radio
  • Fresh mountain air
  • My bookshelf
  • Breakfast
  • Jimmy
  • Smooth days at work
  • Aprons
  • Red wine
  • Chipper maintenance men
  • Non-clutter
  • Good food

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Friend Notes

When you're down in the dumps, sometimes it takes notes like these to realize that life is worth living, and living well.

My friend Kim sent me this, when she knew I needed it the most.

For what it is worth:

1) you are a thoughtful friend. you send texts, cards, and flowers at the times when your friends need it
2) you make your friends laugh.
3) you see things from all angles and don't have a narrow point of view
4) you are fun to be around
5) you are sooooo pretty
6) you always smell good

I am proud that you are my friend!

And we know there's a bad list somewhere, but bless her soul for choosing not to sent that one.

Friends Rock.

Friday, April 9, 2010

What I know about James Walter

My Significant Other:

1. He's: Working, like me.
2. You're out to eat, what kind of dressing does he get on his salad? Bleu Cheese
3. What's one food he doesn't like? He seems to like it all. No really, I think he does.
4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order? Bud Light, or Oatmeal Stout
5. Where did he go to high school? Freedom High School
6. What size shoe does he wear? 10
7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be? Press Passes
8. What is his favorite type of sandwich? Prime Rib or a good ole' Bacon Cheeseburger
9. What would this person eat every day if he could? See above.
10. What is his favorite cereal? Peanut Butter Cap'n Crunch
11. What would he never wear? A Duke Shirt
12. What is his favorite sports team? Tie: Tarheels, Boston Red Sox, New England Patriots
13. Who did he vote for? Obama
14. Who is his best friend? He has several, but gonna have to go with Mike Turner.
15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do? Stink up the bathroom and leave the door open!!!!
16. What is his heritage? Portugese
17. You bake him a cake for his birthday; what kind of cake? Cheesecake
18. Did he play sports in high school? Soccer!
19. What could he spend hours doing? Watching sporting events on tv, lord help me.
20. What is one unique talent he has? He's quite the lensman.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

The End.

Things can't always be as they were. I'm slowly realizing this as I continue to fight for a friendship that may already be gone.

Said friend writes ambigiously on her Facebook wall: "Friendships can't be fueled by memories."

No, no they can't said friend.

Nice job trying to get that message out without acting like it wasn't directed right at me.

Is it okay to let it go? After 7 years in the making? After journeying through hell and back? Even if I feel I've invested way too much of myself into it? I feel like I've put almost finished a jigsaw puzzle that's only got a few pieces left. And I'm walking away.

I need a therapist.

Is it okay go against the grain, and fight to keep something alive, that I guess has already been slipping through my fingers all along?

I guess it's time.

There's only so much you can do, I suppose. But this realization comes after months of a middle-school type fighting.

E-mailing - not getting responses back.

Texting - only to get one or two word responses, sometimes nothing at all.

Lauging louder, and acting so darn happy when an awkward meeting of the mutual friends including "said friend" and myself took place. Oh the maturity.

Did I try to call? Heck no. I don't like confrontation unless it absolutely necessary. I avoid talking on the phone as much as possible. So that's not an option until it has to be. I much prefer e-mail and text wars. There's a reason my work is done behind the scenes and not on camera.

But even after a phone conversation took place that was 3 months in the making: I got off the phone feeling pretty shitty about myself. I've never heard so many of my bad traits listed one of after the other -- to my face - in a matter of 45 minutes. Wow. I didn't know I had so many bad qualities. Thanks for that, I guess.

Okay. So maybe friendships aren't fuled by memories said friend. But seeing it in black and white, maybe you've helped me get the closure I need.

Maybe you just help me realize that I'm fighting for something that doesn't exist anymore.

So thanks, I guess.

For the cryptic FB message.

Now I can quit worrying. And realize that it is what it is.. and it can't be what it was. And my energy can be directed towards something much more healthier, like my current addiction of watching classic films. (Can't wait for Shop Around the Corner!)

So I guess we're in agreement.

The End.

But you get a whole blog post about it from me, instead of a measly little FB comment.