This was a gamble. We knew striking out was a possibility.
Right after I published a cheery blog about my egg retrieval and moving forward, the embryologist called us and said we had no fertilization and that I should stop taking my medication.
I was pretty upset right off the bat. I kinda felt like we had this. We were so close. Well, it felt that way. But it guess you don't really have it until you take home a baby.
It was quite the curve ball also for the staff who had not anticipated this outcome based on what they saw with our sperm/eggs.
Jimmy and I had some sad time together and then we had to pick ourselves up and carry on with the day. I asked him if he wanted me to cancel his dentist appointment. He said no.
I'm glad we went.
The car ride there was pitiful, though. I was tearing up behind my monster aviators which are a savior for times like these.
Remember, a nurse rides with us to most places and they don't know everything happening with us yet. So, yeah I was hiding behind my glasses.
But we kind of snapped out of it after the dentist appointment. I don't even know why. Was it the traffic corner transvestite with his/her whistle and baton? Maybe.
I also think we realized that this isn't the end of the road for us. We still have options. Some of them may not be 100% ideal, but I think we know the result(s) will be ideal.
We will talk with our doctor after she consults her colleagues and make a decision on what we need to do next.
Meanwhile I have a hair appointment tomorrow and I am considering taking advantage of a girl's mountain weekend coming up. Seems like it might be good timing.
Jimmy and I also have some therapy sessions next week. Also good timing.
It's nice to hug my husband and I know I have him. I can go in for a hug whenever I want. Even if he doesn't want me to. Too bad.
I'm looking forward to spending the weekend with him.
We really are okay. I promise. We have to keep things interesting right?
I will keep you posted on journey and put all your prayers on a shelf for when we will need them once again.
Thanks always for the support.
"Experience is one thing you can't get for nothing."